SINGING A NEW SONG

Preparing our garden

2011-03-31T20:05:00.000-07:00

First of all, I can't believe it's been over a year since I've posted. Guess life changes a LOT with two little ones :)

I'm going to be working through the Homeschool Village Garden Challenge with Anthony, which is going to require me to be posting on here. I'm really hoping it leads to more regular posting... I really love using this as a way to document our life.

So here we go!

This is the main area we will be planting our garden. Our house is currently for sale, so I'm not sure if we will be here to reap the benfits of having a garden, but it will bless whoever the new owners are I'm sure. This is also our last year here in the USA as we will be moving to the Dominican Republic next spring. Gardening is going to look a lot different there, so I want to expose my boys to the fun of planting a garden this year, however that ends up looking.

We plan on planting garlic, tomatoes, and basil this year, maybe some spinach and lettuce, and I'm sure some zucchini and beans.

I plan on following along with lessons from Homeschool Creations. She does such an amazing job, and with life being a little on the crazy side right now, I am blessed to be able to use the work that someone else was able to put time into. Anthony and I have loved everything we have done off the site, and I know the garden unit will be no different. We just picked up our gardening books from the library yesterday, and am looking forward to going through them with the boys beginning next week.

I haven't gone into too many details yet about our garden plans with Anthony; it's hard being patient when you're 3! We prepped our beds last weekend though and had fun playing in the dirt and looking at worms. Our last freeze isn't until the end of May, so we have quite a while until we can actually start planting. I'm hoping to start some seeds indoors soon and do some research into seeing if any crops can be planted early here. I am still definitely a beginner gardener!

Going 100 mph

2010-03-16T13:44:00.000-07:00

The past couple weeks I feel like I've been going about 100 mph. Even in my down time my head is still spinning with everything I need to or should be doing. Breathe. That's what I keep telling myself. Despite the fast pace of life right now, things have been running fairly smoothly, so that's a plus :) Although I would love to post everything I've been up to, I'm afraid time just won't allow right now. But let me tell you briefly: we took an overnight road trip for the 1st time with two kiddos, went to 2 dinner parties, had friends over for dinner, sewed curtains, dyed our couches, installed lights, and prepped 14 new diapers for sewing. All while keeping the house in order, waking up at 5am, adjusting to the time change, and trying to spend some quality time together. I'm hoping to post pictures of these things at some point...

On another note, I finally uploaded some pictures onto the computer from both cameras. I love this one of Noah smiling.

Then I realized it reminded me of a picture of Anthony. I haven't thought they look much alike until now....

What do you think??? Noah is 9.5 weeks in his picture and Anthony is 15.5 weeks in his, but boy do they look the same. Here's another one of Anthony at 11 weeks (one of my favorites of him).

And another of Noah at 9.5 weeks.

How fast they grow!!! Now 2.5 years later I've not got this handsome boy loving on his baby brother.

*Sigh* Being a mommy sure is hard work, but I wouldn't trade it for anything!!!

Amazed

2010-03-02T09:32:00.000-08:00

"How great is the love the Father has lavished upon us..." 1 John 3:1a

This morning I can be nothing but amazed by how much the Father loves me. About an hour ago, my husband was talking with the hospital that I delivered Noah at about our bill, when nothing short of a miracle happened. They said that our bill had been wiped clean. That's right, 100% covered!!! Literally thousands of dollars of debt has been erased. We knew somehow the Lord would provide for us, we never doubted that, but never did we expect it to happen like this. Oh what a wonderful way He chose to remind us not only of His provision, but of His amazing love for us! I've been singing this song all morning. I hope it reminds you of His love for you too.

What a week!!!

2010-02-26T09:35:00.000-08:00

This week has absolutely flown by... not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing :)

Monday, we met up with Daddy for a lovely picnic. It was still a little on the chilly side, but absolutely beautiful! We had a great time trying to take a family picture... here's our best shot:

Tuesday was Mom's group, and we finished up Gift from the Sea. I'm a couple chapters behind, but I plan to write about it when I'm done. Definitely a must read (and an easy one too).

Wednesday I had to take the older one to the dentist. I was SO proud of him!!! Last time, he wouldn't open his mouth, but this time he got x-rays, fluoride, and let them brush his teeth.... All without so much as a peep. I couldn't believe it!

I also had to take a trip back to the lactation office :( Good news is we think we've figured out what's going on... too much milk. The remedy? Eat a ton of Altoids.

I guess peppermint will lower my supply. So I have 8 more hours to eat at least 16 more of these guys. I'm sure going to have some minty fresh breath!

Yesterday, I played catch up from being out of the house all week, but I did get the chance to make a couple loafs of bread. I tried two new recipes. Amish bread for the Hubby and Anthony, and a gluten free sweet dark bread for me. I can't tell you much about the first other than it was incredibly easy to make, but the gluten free loaf... oh my goodness I am in Heaven! This was the best gluten free bread I have every had. Ever! I think I had at least 4 slices of it right out of the beadmaker. I will definitely be making this weekly... maybe even twice a week :)

Today marked day 3 of my hubby and I waking up at 5am for coffee and the Word together. We are doing the B90X reading plan, pretty intense, but we're loving it. I thought it would kill me getting up so early, but I actually look forward to it. I'm loving the stillness and quietness of the morning, and discussing what I am learning with my husband. I have also found that I am way more patient with Anthony having had time to fully wake up and be ready for the day before he gets out of bed. Not something I expected with getting less sleep.

The rest of the day I will be catching up on laundry (while hopefully sneaking in a movie during naptime), doing school with Anthony, and sewing a few diapers for friend. Sounds simple enough, but everything is a huge undertaking right now with two.

Hope everyone else had a good week!

PS- Welcome Company Girls... This is my first week joining in for some coffee :)

What a lovely surprise!

2010-02-20T15:52:00.000-08:00

I started blogging mainly as a way for me to look back and remember all the little things that make up my life. To remind myself of where I've been, how far I've come, and to dream about where I'm going. So imagine my surprise when I found this lovely surprise waiting for me:

I wasn't even aware that anyone really read my blog, let alone enjoyed it enough to send an award my way. Thank you Danielle for totally making my day!!!

As with any award, it comes with rules.
They are as follows:

1.Thank the link to the person that gave you the award
2.Pass this award on to 15 bloggers you've recently discovered & whom you think are fantastic
3.Contact said Blogs to let them know they've won
4.State 7 Things about yourself

I'll start with 7 things about myself:

1. I married my high school sweetheart
2. I hate being pregnant, but love the reward at the end so much I want to do it at least once more
3. I have Celiac Disease which means no gluten for me
4. I'm learning Spanish
5. I'm usually on the shy side unless I'm on stage acting or dancing, which hasn't happened in about 8 years
6. I really miss being on stage :)
7. We hope to move abroad in about 3 years

I really wish I had 15 blogs to award... I'm afraid I don't have near enough time right now with two little ones to keep up with that many. I barely have enough time to post on my own!

Here are 6 that I do try and read when I'm able, and maybe even comment on if I'm lucky :) I also included why I enjoy it:

1. I never know what to expect over at Peanut's Page. Some days a funny story, others a great deal or recipe, but lately, a lot of wonderful photographs! And her little one is oh so adorable!

2. If you want a good laugh you should head on over to Mommy Wonderland. I also love reading about how much she lovers her hubby, boys, friends, and family. It inspires me to be more loving :)

3. Ben and Katie are on an incredible journey right now that brings tears to my eyes, and reminds me of how loving and faithful our God is. The trust Katie has in the Lord and the love she has for her husband amazes and challenges me every time I read what they're going through. I can't wait until I read about Ben's complete healing!!!

4. Busy Beez and Chickadeez spotlights her adorable children's and beautiful wedding lines that are sold on Etsy and in several stores in my local area. She is so talented and I love it all!

5. I love reading anything and everything that is posted on Amerie Rose. She writes so elegantly and passionately that I can't help but be sucked into her beautiful world. Maybe it's all the talk of France! She also makes some awesome baby shoes, among other things, that are sold on Etsy.

6. If you want to check out some amazing pictures, check out Amy's work at Amy Kolcz Photography. It's absolutely beautiful!

On another note, Noah slept a full 8 hours last night. Now that was a really lovely surprise!!!

My 1st Refashion and a Smile

2010-02-17T21:24:00.000-08:00

I have been wanting to try my hand at refashioning for quite some time. I've read lots of blogs and tutorials on it, and dreamed up some of my own items I could attempt to change, but have been a little too timid to try. I finally realized if I'm never going to wear the item again anyways, it wouldn't hurt to try right?!?

This was the dress I wore for our rehearsal dinner when we got married. I would have taken a pic with it on, but my post-baby body would never be able to get close to fitting into it :) Besides the memories from the night I wore it, I love the fabric and just haven't been able to part with it. You want to see what I came up with???

This lovely shirt! It's a little hard to tell what it looks like, but I'm pretty happy with how it turned out. The only thing I think I'll change is to get a solid color ribbon to run through the top. Perhaps a chocolate brown one?!? Anyways, maybe one day I'll post a picture wearing it so you can get the full effect.

On another note, my little Noah has started smiling. This picture doesn't fully capture it, but I promise it's not just gas :) He laid next to me smiling and cooing today for a good 10 minutes. I really got to enjoy it too because Anthony was napping at the time. I love my little guy!!!

Pockets

2010-02-17T19:41:00.000-08:00

Today I filled up a "pocket" in my new sewing room. (Want to know what I'm talking about... head on over to one of my favorite blogs, Home Sanctuary, to check out today's small thing). I've been wanting for some time now to frame some of my favorite verses and quotes, and today I finally sat down to do it! Such a simple thing, but it made me feel so accomplished :) These didn't turn out as perfect as I would have liked, but I knew my time was very limited before one or both kiddos woke up from their nap. They'll do just fine for now. Sorry the pictures aren't the best.

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

2010-02-14T21:52:00.000-08:00

We have never been big on celebrating Valentine's Day, but we did try and do a couple special things today. Took a few pictures to try and capture some "moments." Enjoy!

Started the morning with my favorite gluten free cinnamon rolls... shaped as hearts with pink frosting :)

Smiled at my little Stegosaurus wondering around the house

Got all dressed up for church (Just realized there are still Christmas trees on the fridge... oops)

Watched my boys play together

Finally used our pasta machine to make some AMAZING homemade gluten free pasta... just have to add that my hubby rolled it all through. Thanks Babe!!!

We turned it into Shrimp Scampi

Tony actually wrote this for me on Friday, but I still have it up :)

And I gave him this Valentine... sweet and simple!

And now, we are relaxing with some vino and watching the Olympics. Probably should be sleeping since both kiddos are, but hey, it's Valentine's Day right?!?

Hope everyone had a wonderful love filled day!

Sneak Peak

2010-02-12T08:38:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to give everyone a sneak peak of what's to come... stay tuned for more details :)

Woohoo!!!

2010-02-08T21:16:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to shot for joy... our taxes have been submitted!!! So glad I can breathe a big sigh of relief. Now if only we didn't have to use the money for hospital bills :)

The first month...

2010-02-08T08:22:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, my little Noah turned one month... Did I miss something!?! I seriously feel like I just got home from the hospital. I meant to get a picture of him to mark the occasion, but it didn't happen. Maybe I'll get one today. Here's a couple recent ones:

The first couple weeks went like a dream... I'm think I must have been on an adrenaline high or something. Or maybe I was just SO glad to not be pregnant anymore. We made it to church, on time, when Noah was only 10 days old. I ventured out to Mom's group, the library, and the grocery store all by myself with both kiddos. My house was clean, dinner was made, and the laundry washed, folded, and put away. I even started Anthony on his first week of school and removed his naptime diaper (one more diaper left!). And then last week happened...

Monday I woke up with Mastitis and was knocked flat on my face. If you've ever experience this, you know how tough it is to function... fever, chills, body aches, nausea, and pain... oh the pain! All while taking care of a newborn (and two year old). I was lucky enough to experience this 7 times while breastfeeding Anthony, so thankfully I was able to catch it pretty early on before it got really bad. However, after 2 days of antibiotic, I still wasn't feeling better. So into the doctor's office, the lab, and lactation I went. Four hours later, I was finally able to head home. Thank goodness my hubby was available to come with us! I am finally feeling better, and praying I don't have to go through this again.

Little Noah has developed some pretty bad reflux and was started on medication this week... however it takes a couple weeks to start working, and right now, it seems to be getting worse every night. I feel so bad for him knowing he's in pain, and there's nothing I can do. Thankfully, his reflux doesn't include too much vomitting; it's more on the "silent" side...coughing, choking, grunting. After each feeding he has to stay upright for at least a half hour, making for some long nights. My new bedtime is now officially 7:30pm. As long as I get to sleep around then, I can wake up the next day feeling fairly rested and able to function without feeling too overwhelmed. I think Anthony appreciates me getting some rest too, so that I have enough patience to handle a very energetic and curious two year old.

Anthony is still completely in love with his brother

They ended up with matching jammies, from 2 different people... of course I had to take a picture!

And Anthony has been practicing taking care of Noah with his potty training doll... very cute, although Dad's not a huge fan of his son playing with a doll :)

I'm very glad today is a new day, and a new week at that. I have been reading in Matthew, and have been encouraged by some great promises, and challenged by His words. My favorite promise right now is of course Matthew 11:28 "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." (doesn't rest sound wonderful! It's also what Noah's name means), and I have been the most challenged by Matthew 5:15 "Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house." It goes on to say "In the same way let your light shine before men...," but I was challenged by the idea of being a light in my own house. Yes, I am tired, and yes, I haven't been feeling well, but I'm sure Jesus often felt the same too. I want to be a light in my own house, so that when I am doing so outside of my house, it is because that's who I really am, not who I am trying to appear to be. Does that make sense? Anyways, I am really enjoying my devotions right now, and they are definitely bringing life to me during a time I am feeling rather drained.

Well, since the little one is asleep with Daddy right now, I am off to play with my Anthony!

"Celebrate the Boy"

2010-02-02T13:38:00.000-08:00

I am absolutely ecstatic about what is going on over at Made and Made by Rae. For a whole month they have decided to "celebrate the boy" and will both be posting tutorials, crafts, and ideas just for the special little men in our lives. I can't wait to see what they've got in store for us! Head on over and check them out, and pick up one of there cute buttons while you're at it.

Care to join me?!?

2010-02-01T13:09:00.000-08:00

This month I have decided to take a break from Facebook to spend more focused time praying for friends, family, and finances. Now that I can access Facebook from my phone, I have found myself "checking in," so to say, whenever I sit down to feed Noah. I haven't really thought anything of it because it's not like I could be doing anything else. The past week or so, I have felt guilty every time I sign on though. After spending some time in prayer about it, I realized I could use that time in a much better way. Prayer!!! I actually really enjoy praying, but I usually find myself so busy or tired, that I forget to stop and spend time with the Lord. I have been given the opportunity though, thanks to my new little man, to stop multiple times throughout the day (and night) to just sit and be still. So I'm going to try and make the most of this gift I've been given.

I have decided to choose a different thing to pray about each day to help me stay focused. Here's what my week will look like:

Monday: My husband
Tuesday: Friends we know on the mission field in India, England, Dominican Republic, and Mexico
Wednesday: My sons... I love that this is plural now :)
Thursday: My friend's marriages
Friday: My siblings... between Tony and I we have 14!!!
Saturday: Direction and purpose for our family
Sunday: Our Finances

So how about you? Is anyone else up to the challenge? Maybe Facebook isn't the thing to fast for you, but I'm sure you know exactly what your thing is.

Please keep me in your prayers this month that I would be successful following through with this decision, and for breakthrough in the specific things I will be praying for!

He's Here!!!

2010-01-12T17:02:00.000-08:00

Noah Robert arrived Thursday afternoon, at 2:47pm. He weighed 7lbs 9oz and was 20.5" long. I sure am glad I was induced 10 days early, or he would have been a big baby!!! I had an easy labor and delivery, although it was a little over an hour longer than with Anthony. Guess second babies aren't always born faster :)

Noah is an absolute sweetheart! Anthony was an amazing baby so I thought for sure we would be in for a much harder time. God definitely blessed us again though, and little Noah is living up to his name already. (It means peace, rest, and comfort.)

He is a champion eater... at his check up yesterday he was only one ounce shy of his birth weight. Normally they don't see that until 2 weeks, but he's only 4 days :) We no longer have to be concerned about him eating every 2 to 3 hours during the night, so he can sleep as long as he'd like. He does seem to be quite the night owl though, and was still wide awake last night at 1am. Good thing I'm still in complete awe and didn't mind just looking at his sweet little face.

Anthony is loving his baby brother. He wants to hold him, "all by himself", all the time, and does a great job reminding baby brother to not scratch his face... although were trying to work on not yelling at him to stop :) He's not so happy with Tony and I right now, so I am very happy my mom is here to help with him. I'm not sure what he's feeling exactly, but he doesn't really want anything to do with us. At least he's not taking it out on Noah.

So happy to introduce you to our newest addition!

2010 Goals

2010-01-05T13:56:00.000-08:00

Over the weekend, my husband and I spent some time talking about our goals for the new year. We went along with this post from Simple Mom. (which by the way, if you haven't checked out, you should... I love this site!) I love that it asked some very specific questions and wasn't just a broad "What are your goals for 2010?" It really helped us to focus on specific things, which I think will make the goals we set actually attainable. It took us through some personal and health goals, goals for our marriage, family, and kids, financial goals, and other relationships. Then it had you narrow it down to 5 specific ones. Here are my top 5 goals for the new year:

1. Quiet time with Jesus daily: Although I wanted to say I'm going to read my word daily, I really felt like I'd be setting myself up to fail. With a new baby arriving shortly, I will have lots of time in the middle of the night and in the early morning to spend with Jesus. I hope this often involves opening up my Bible, but may also just be me being still before Him, spending time in prayer, or worshiping.

2. Lose baby weight and get in shape: When I am not pregnant, I'm a pretty small person. This does not necessarily mean I'm in good shape though. I hate it when people assume that! Anyways, I really want to focus on this for the upcoming year. I know the longer I wait to do this, the harder it will be to start. I love doing Yoga and Pilates... I find them both relaxing and rewarding, and I always sleep better when I do it. I also love the Wii Fit. Anthony really enjoys playing along too, and Tony and I enjoy competing against each other on it. I am also looking forward to the spring when we can go enjoy the outdoors here in the beautiful NW.

3. Become less selfish: This one will be hard, but it truly shows up in all areas of my life. It has to do with control for me. If I get my way, I feel like I'm in control. I actually hate it though. I really don't want to be in control... it's way to stressful! How much easier it would be to surrender everything to Jesus and let Him take control, and in all actuality, He's already in control anyways. I'm not sure why I spend so much time trying to control what I actually have no say over in the first place. I think Matthew 10:39 is going to help me with this: "Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it." I want to let go of my own life, give it to Jesus, and focus on loving Him and those around me. I know it will bring myself, and therefore my family, so much more peace and joy.

4. Spend time daily ntentionally teaching Anthony: Anthony is smart. I'm not just saying that because he's my son, but because he really is an extremely intelligent little boy. He is so eager to learn and asks me everyday to do school with him. I feel guilty for not taking more advantage of this. Maybe I shouldn't be so hard on myself being the last 9 months have been filled with morning sickness and bed rest, but I still feel like I've failed him. I've come up with a tentative plan, and have about a month's worth of lesson figured out already. Each week we will focus on a different letter of the Alphabet and a specific thing that starts with that letter. Then each day of the week will be a different subject. For example, A will be for Ant. We'll look at the different parts of an ant's body and do a craft using this for science. For math, I'm going to make some ant hills with numbers on them... then he'll have to glue that many ants (raisins) onto each hill. You get the idea. I will then incorporate spanish and sign language into the lessons when appropriate. I wish I could learn languages like he does! I've also found an ABC list of verses to use. It will help Tony and I in memorizing scripture too :) Then in the fall, we hope to be able to afford to send him to preschool. Not because I couldn't continue to teach him, but because he really thrives being with other kids.

5. Kiss my husband daily: I've noticed lately that sometimes we go a whole day without so much as a hug or kiss or anything... sometimes maybe even multiple days In no way is this intentional. It's not because we get in huge fights and are punishing each other or something I love my husband, and I love to kiss him... He says he married me for my kisses :) I think we both get so busy doing, that we forget to just be. You hear stories of people who realize once the kids leave that they don't know each other anymore. I don't want to be that couple! We have a whole lifetime ahead us and I want to make sure I am continually putting into it. I need to remember my relationship to my husband comes before my children. I am not really sure how this actually plays out though with a 2 1/2 year old and a newborn arriving any day. Anyone have any advice on this one? I remember being so drained at the end of each day with Anthony, that by the time he went to bed, I had nothing left to give Tony. I just wanted to go be by myself. I can only imagine how much more I'm going to feel like this with two.

So there they are. For the whole world to see, or whoever happens to read through all of this :) Has anyone else taken time to think about what they hope to accomplish in the new year? What are your top 5?

Cute Little Birdies

2010-01-05T12:22:00.000-08:00

My Aunt has recently opened an Etsy shop, and right now she has the cutest Valentine's cards available. I highly recommend heading over to Friday Finds Mama to check them out. They are the most adorable little felted birds complete with hand stitching. These two are my favorite:

Aren't you in love?!?!

Pardon My Absence!

2010-01-03T16:07:00.000-08:00

Wow, it's been a while since I've posted anything! I really don't have ANY excuse. I've had 6 weeks of bed rest, meaning I should have had all the time in the world to write. And although I really despise being stuck in bed, it was very relaxing having some much needed alone time. I can't remember the last time I had time to myself that I didn't use cleaning or cooking. And other than some sewing, I pretty much just laid and did nothing for 6 weeks. I didn't even really have the TV on. It was just quiet. It's going to be a long time until I experience that again :)

I've been off bed rest for 2 weeks now, and the past week has been an interesting one. I took a trip into labor and delivery on Monday around 5am. After being monitored for about an hour I dilated from a 2 to a 4! They had me get up and walk for 2 hours, checked me again, and no change. They decided to send me home for a nap and some lunch, and told me I'd be coming back in that evening to have the baby. HA!!! My mother-in-law flew out right away, stayed for a week, and guess what? Still no baby!!!

So now I'm waiting again. The house is clean, the car is packed, and I am going crazy. I had a very fast labor with Anthony, only 6 hours from the time they induced me until he was born, so I am VERY nervous about not making it to the hospital in time or being able to get an epidural. Especially since my contractions never hurt until my water was broke.

So there's a baby update for you. Nothing too exciting, but I know I'll enjoy looking back at this one day. So I guess it's more of an update for me :)

Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and New Year's! Maybe I'll post about ours later...

Heartbroken

2009-12-16T15:48:00.000-08:00

Today we received some heartbreaking news. It is not my story to share, nor do I know enough of the details to explain, but my heart is broken.

You always go through a whole range of emotions when you hear bad news. Right now I am trying to understand why (which I know I will probably never know the answer). I feel helpless because there is nothing I can do, and I feel guilty because I am not the one suffering.

You're always told not to take things for granted because it could all be taken away in an instant. I know this is true, but who really lives this out daily? Unless you're experiencing loss yourself, it seems like such a distant thing. I feel completely selfish for not taking time to thank God for everything that he has given to me from the small things that seem to be meaningless, to the things that are so obvious I'm blinded to them. When was the last time I thanked God for my amazing husband and precious son, or this little guy on the way? Instead I pray about all things that frustrate me and beg for more patience. Pretty pathetic when I think about it.

I guess I'm being reminded of how distant I've become. Not that I've strayed and gone off the deep end or something, but in my everyday life, I've forgotten Him. At a time when I'm hurting and want to offer Him to other who are hurting too, He's not as close as I have led myself to believe. Of course He didn't move... I did that on my own.

I'm still heartbroken, but I am thankful that I love a God I can reach out to, ask for forgiveness, and trust that He will open His arms and allow me to rest in His comfort.

Psalm 61:1-4

Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer.
From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe.
I long to dwell in your tent forever
And take refuge in the shelter of your wings.

Quick Update and a Sneak Peak

2009-12-04T20:50:00.000-08:00

I probably don't have any reason for disappering on here, being I'm on bedrest and everything, but I guess I just haven't had much to say or had any fun new projects to post about.

I had an OB appointment on Tuesday, and an ultrasound. I am no longer on strict bed rest, but am not really supposed to do anything either. I guess I think of it as being allowed to sit some instead of strictly laying flat. The baby is still measuring big... over 6 lbs to be exact!!! I am 33 weeks right now, so if I go to 40 weeks I am looking at having a 10 lb baby. Anthony was 7 lbs 10oz, bigger than expected, and the dr says I won't be able to deliver a baby much bigger. SO, they're going to do another ultrasound in 3 weeks and see how things are looking. Then we'll discuss a plan from there. I want to avoid a C-section if at all possible. My body does NOT heal quickly and in past surgeries I've always reacted poorly to the meds they give you. So being induced early may be an option, especially since Anthony was only a 6 hour labor. They don't really want me going into labor at home since I am likely to have a very fast labor. I am very ready to be done being pregnant and hope it will be safe for me to deliver soon.

Here's a sneak peak at the sweet little guy growing inside of me... reminds me this is all worth it :)

Rest

2009-11-18T14:36:00.000-08:00

Last week, if you asked me what I needed the most right now, I would have said rest. Rest from housework, chasing after a 2 yr old, cooking, people, etc. Being pregnant, and a wife and mommy, is hard work! I would've said I'd love nothing more than to curl up in my bed for a few days and just be left alone. Apparently I must have prayed and asked Jesus to give me this. And since I have such a loving and giving Father, he blessed me with what I asked for, just not quite how I was hoping.

Monday I was put on full bed rest. It appears this little guy inside of me is just as anxious as his big brother was to come out and play. (I was on bed rest from weeks 26-37 with Anthony) Thankfully, I have not started to dilate yet and I am in week 30, not 26. That means I am only looking at 7 weeks down, not 11 weeks like I did with Anthony. This really isn't that comforting though... 7 weeks is still horrible in my opinion! They have me on a muscle relaxant to help keep me from contracting; I am not a fan of how it makes me feel.

We were able to fly my Mom out on Monday to help care for Anthony. She'll be here for 8 days, then Tony will be home for a few days, and then his mom will be coming out for a week. After that, I'm not sure what the plan is.

I am not prepared for baby's arrival yet. I was stressed about this before being put on bedrest, so my mind is racing now. I actually can't even write about it right now... I kind of forget to breathe when I start thinking about it.

Other than not having anything ready for baby yet, the timing is horrible. I will be spending these days in bed: Thanksgiving, my birthday, Christmas, our anniversary, and New Year's. Not to mention all the holiday parties and gatherings we'd been invited to, and my cousin's wedding. Blah. I just hope it starts snowing soon, so I can at least enjoy looking out the windows at that all day.

Well, that's my update and rant for today. Back to doing... nothing!

Thanksgiving Turkeys

2009-11-13T12:17:00.000-08:00

For the past 3 years now Anthony and I have made these to send out to family to wish them a Happy Thanksgiving. They are made from tracings of his little hands and feet. It has been so much fun to see how much he's grown. Usually I just write "Happy Thanksgiving" and the year on the back, but I found this cute little saying that I'm going to use this year

"This isn’t just a turkey,as anyone can see.

I made it with my hands and feet, which are a part of me.

It comes with lots of love, especially to say:

I hope you have a very Happy Thanksgiving Day!"

I think I'm going to start hanging these on ribbon that I can add to every year. Well, back to the cutting... that's the time consuming part!

Using the envelope system

2009-11-13T09:57:00.000-08:00

This month we began using the envelope system. I know quite a few people who swear by this method, but I have not been sold on the idea. I like to know where every single penny is going, and I actually really enjoy importing all of our spending into an excell worksheet. I don't remember where I heard it, but several months ago I heard someone say something along the lines of "would you rather know where every penny is going, or stay out of debt?" It stuck with me.

We currently host an exchange student from China. We have participated in the program for a couple years now, and absolutely love it. It has been so interesting learning about other cultures, and I love having a friend around the house when Tony's on the road. An additional perk in doing this though is that we get paid, $550 per month, to open up our home. Since I'm a SAHM, this money has helped us make it through each month and we definitely rely on it to live! Last month we found out that this will be our students last quarter with us. She had planned on staying with us until June so it was a complete shock. And I must say created some panic among us. Especially with a new baby on the way. I spent about a week going through our budget, and realized it was time for us to start using the envelope system. It was pretty much our only option to make sure we stay afloat, along with lots of prayer that nothing major happens!

So here's how it's broken down:

Mortgage, Car Payment, Cell Phone, Electric, W/S/G, Internet, School Loan, Life/Car Insurance, Credit Card, and Tithe are all being payed online. These things total aproximately $2300.

$125 is going into savings strictly to pay for the baby being born (this one's been going on all year).

And here's where the envelopes come into play:

Groceries	220
Gas/Oil	60
Baby	50
Household items	20
Home Improvement	40
Eating Out/Fun	30
Clothes	30
Beauty	20
Medical	40
Gifts	25
Misc.	45

I actually found it rather fun over the past 2 weeks seeing how much money I could have left before the next payday, and I was pleasantly surprised. We'll see how much is left at the end of the month though :) I'll make sure and post how it goes.

Does anyone else use this system? Do you have any tips or pointers about it, or general ideas on cutting costs?

Cloth Diapers

2009-11-09T15:11:00.000-08:00

I have been super busy the past week working on baby's cloth diapers (among many other things of course!). One of the things I spent some time doing was changing my pattern around so 1) it was no longer an exact replica of someone else's design and 2) to see if there was a way to speed up the process of making each diaper. I was sucessful in both of these!

One of the things that I did was make all of the elastic removable by snaps. I haven't used cloth diapers before, so I have no idea how long the elastic is good for before it starts to loose it's stretchiness. Since we want to have 3 or 4 kids, I'm pretty sure that by the time baby #4 rolls around, it will have worn out. I HATE ripping out seams, and you want to avoid holes in the PUL to keep it waterproof anyways, so I thought this would make life a lot easier for me down the road. It also saves me time in having to sew in the elastic. Snaps take only seconds to apply :)

I also made the elastic in the waistband adjustable. Anthony is really small for his age, so he needs it pretty tight, but with baby #2 measuring into the 93rd% right now, there's a good chance he'll be a little bit rounder than Anthony by the time he's 2. This also makes it so I can add in more snaps if needed to get the fit perfect.

To help in speeding up the sewing process, I am using one piece of fabric for the inner layer and cutting a pocket, instead of sewing two pieces together to make one. The suedecloth doesn't pill or unravel, so it is working out well to do this. I am just sewing around the opening to reinforce it.

I am still working on perfecting the soaker inserts. Since Anthony is potty trained, he's only wearing these when he's sleeping. He pees a TON during the night though! It has been an interesting process figuring out exactly how many layers of fabric he needs to wake up dry in the morning. Last night was successful... he had either 7 or 8 layers of the microfiber. I know there are lots of other materials out there I can try for the soakers; wool, bamboo, hemp, etc., but I really don't want to waste my money on more fabric that may or may not work. However, I did just get some bamboo fleece that I am going to try using with the microfiber. Anyone made there own inserts before? I've also read that it takes 5 washings for the diaper to reach it's maximum absorbency. We've had no problems during naps though, which is great!

SO there you go... that's how the cloth diapering is going :)

A lesson learned...

2009-11-05T08:44:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a LONG day... Anthony went to bed at 9:30 the night before and got up at 6am. He ate a handful of cereal for breakfast, refused to eat lunch, and then we battled it out for a nap for over 3 hours before he finally gave in. When he woke up, he cried for 20 mins because he wanted one of Mommy's vitamins. Anthony is not a crier. He never has been, so I had no idea how to respond. Of course I didn't know why he was crying until he finally calmed down. But then what was I suppose to do... he obviously still couldn't have one of my vitamins. (What a wierd thing to be upset about!!!) He ate only some pork for dinner, and then I put on a movie for him until Tony got home from Seattle. Then we battled it out, again, until he finally went to sleep sometime after 9:30.

Then I couldn't sleep. As I lay in bed, frustrated at my sweet little boy, I spent some time reflecting back over my day. What went wrong? I wanted to blame everything on Anthony, but as I prayed for some insight, I realized I had been pretty selfish with my time. I spent my day on the computer, sewing, cleaning, and cooking. And a good portion telling Anthony I would do "a" with him as soon as I finished "b". I know specifically he asked to play cars, letters, baseball, and guitars. And did I do any of them? Nope. I went to bed feeling pretty horrible.

So today, I'm going to try and change my attitude. Instead of feeling like my day is being sabotaged by a little boy just wanting to play with his mommy, I'm going to see it just as that. My guess is that I'll be surprised how much time will be left for me to accomplish what I need and want to do.

Does this challenge anyone else? Anyone have any insight?

Newborn Sleeper

2009-11-02T09:21:00.000-08:00

Yesterday morning I came across a new blog: This Mama Makes Stuff. She has a tutorial for turning a T-shirt into a newborn nightgown, and I fell in love :) I had set aside one of Tony's old t-shirts when working on his quilt... a cute baseball shirt from when he was little with Collazo across the back. I decided the front of his shirt would be perfect for this project, so I got to work! I wish I had a before picture... all of our cameras in the house happened to be dead at the same time. (What are the chances of that!?!?) Here's my after though:

I love it! I think I will have to start watching for shirts at the thrift store so I can make some more. These would be a fun addition to the baby blankets I usually make for shower gifts.

The back of the shirt I'm saving for another project for Anthony. Thinking it will make a great Christmas gift for him. You'll have to wait for that one though!

A Solution...

2009-10-30T15:49:00.000-07:00

My husband hates getting rid of his clothes. He still has stuff from Jr High that he hasn't worn since then. A few months ago I convinced him that he needed to start going through his drawers. How'd I do it? I told him I would make those clothes into a quilt. I'm pretty sure he's forgotten about it by now, but I've stashed all the old t-shirts away to pull out for his Christmas present. A quilt. A lot of the shirts do have some memory or story behind them, so I do understand why he holds onto them, but I think making them into a quilt is a much better solution to preserve his memories. (And keep my sanity when trying to put his laundry away.) I have 28 shirts in the pile below:

and after cutting and laying them out on another quilt as a template, here's what I ended up with:

My squares are going to end up being 14.5". Kind of a weird size, but it'll work. I finished the squares for the top row today. It took a LOT longer than I expected, but then again I've never made a quilt like this either. I'm sure I'll get faster at it the more I do. Here's my first 4 finished squares:

What do you think? Do you like my idea?

I want it!!!

2009-10-29T20:00:00.000-07:00

While I was waiting to get my H1N1 vaccine today at by OB office, I came across this in a magazine.

You wouldn't know how perfect it was unless you knew what the curtains in the nursery looked like.

Wouldn't it be perfect!?!?

Life...

2009-09-29T15:15:00.000-07:00

I'm probably about due for an update on life. I haven't really felt like saying much because, well, I don't really feel like I have anything super exciting or upbeat to say.

Life is in one of those lonely, stressful seasons right now. I'm missing the love and support of close friends and family. I'm overwhelmed with raising a two year old, nonetheless while I am pregnant. I'm scared and anxious about adding another baby to our family and really just want someone to tell me they completely understand and have been there too, and not just give me the "Don't worry you'll do just fine" speech. I'm impatient from waiting to find out if we'll be moving soon. Tired of struggling to get by. I wish I could ease the stress and pressure my husband feels right now. Wish we could hire someone to finish our house so he could rest.

I need a little sunshine in my life. Some encouraging words and someone to pray with me. And boy do I need someone to bend over and mop my floors! The fact that I already can't touch my toes is not very amusing to me when I still have 4 months until baby arrives... I am carrying SO low this time. I painted my own toes the day before I had Anthony :)

I feel a little better now getting all of that out. Sorry to be such a downer for everyone else. I'm sure my next post will be much more positive. My sewing machine is in the shop right now, and I'm looking forward to getting it back and finishing some projects (without wanting to throw it out the window).

Homemade Cloth Diapers: Take 1

2009-09-09T12:01:00.000-07:00

Here it is. My first homemade cloth diaper using all the correct materials. What do you think? It turned out just how it was suppose to, which is always good, but there are some things about it I'm not a huge fan of. So, now I'm going to start making some changes. My first change: the soaker. As you can see in the second picture, the soaker snaps into the diaper so it can be removed when washed and speed up drying time. All I can think about though is that in order to pull it out, you have to touch whatever is inside the diaper. Gross!!! I am going to try to adapt this tutorial for making a pocket diaper to work with the pattern I have. The pocket is on the outside of the diaper, which I think means less contact with the not so pleasant things. My second change will be trying out Velcro along the top instead of snaps. The snaps are easy to put on and very secure, but not at all fast if you're trying to diaper a wiggly baby. Also, when the diaper is in the largest size, there are two snaps left to dig into baby's skin. I can't imagine that to be comfortable!

Well, Anthony's napping, so I'm off to start diaper #2.

PS- I am able to get 10 diapers per yard, not the 6 to 8 I was thinking. Woohoo!!!

It's a BOY!!!

2009-09-09T10:41:00.000-07:00

Despite what everyone thought, we will be welcoming another little boy into our home the middle of January. I actually wanted another boy, but I was so sure it was going to be a girl that I was shocked to hear the ultrasound tech say boy. I will try and upload the pics later. Everything looked good though. The Dr. did say something about the umbilical cord and placenta... I think that the cord was attached to the middle. She said it's nothing to worry about, but they're going to do another ultrasound next month. A little confused on that one.

Now we just have the fun part of choosing a name; we don't agree on a single one. Suggestions would be greatly appreciated :)

Today's the day...

2009-09-08T08:28:00.000-07:00

...we find out if we'll be welcoming a little girl or boy into our family! Appointment is at 3:30 and I'm getting rather anxious. Please pray for my bladder as I fill it full of water... trying not to think about that part!

On another note, I have officially begun "nesting." I had Tony pull down all of the baby clothes yesterday to sort and repack into storage bins. Yes it may seem crazy to have done it yesterday being my ultrasound is today, but I just HAD to do it. We are definitely set if we have another boy. I have 90 gallons worth of boy clothes from newborn to 12 month. A little overboard if you ask me, but 99% of it was given to us. The tricky thing though is that Anthony was born in June and this baby will be born in January. All of Anthony's newborn clothes are cute little shorts, t-shirts, and rompers. Probably not practical when it's below zero. Maybe we are not as set as I think!Now here are the things that I would consider "gender neutral." You'll notice the bin is much smaller and half of it is filled with blankets, burp rags, lap pads, etc. But really... how gender neutral is yellow and green. I think boy for both of these, unless there's pink somewhere on them. We'll see how many of these I actually use if it's a girl.The highlight of sorting all of these was watching Anthony try and put on his newborn clothes, shoes, socks, and hats. I can't believe I didn't take a picture of him all "dressed" up! And I can't believe he was ever so small!!!

We'll I'll be back later to post the outcome and some new ultrasound pics...

Bumbleride Stroller Giveaway

2009-09-07T07:22:00.000-07:00

I can't believe this is being given away for free! Boy do I hope I win this, especially since Anthony's jogging stroller just decided it's out of commission. Check it out at the Best Baby Products Carnival over at Thrifty and Chic.

I think I may be crazy...

2009-09-01T14:53:00.000-07:00

Ever since we found out we were expecting again, Tony and I have been "joking" about using cloth diapers this time around to save some money. Although I know cloth diapers have come along way since I was in them, I still could only picture the white cloth folded up with diaper pins properly placed. You know, like these ones:

I started to do some looking into them, out of curiosity, and was amazed at how many cute and practical options are out there. And expensive! I know in the long run cloth ends up being cheaper than disposable, but seriously. Who has an extra $500 laying around for diapers with everything else you need to buy Especially when you still have to pay an arm and a leg to actually give birth to the baby. I kept doing some research though and found a lot of patterns out there for making your own. So this past weekend, I bought a pattern from Junktique at Etsy, and materials to try it out. (I actually had to improvise on some of the fabrics and notions... apparently you can't buy most of what was needed in a store) I was pretty impressed with how they turned out, and so was my hubby, so... I've decided on making my own. I ordered enough supplies today to start out with 6. They'll run me about $8-9 per diaper. Much cheaper than the $19 bumgenius diapers I'd been considering. Once I hit 30, I'll be done. Here's a picture of what they'll look like. I am going to make some slight modifications from the original pattern, but they'll still look about the same. I think I may be crazy...

Best Baby Products Carnival

2009-08-31T12:36:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite blogs, Thrifty and Chic Mom, is hosting the Best Baby Products Carnival for the whole month of September. I am super excited to see what will be featured, especially with our new little one arriving in the next few months. Make sure and check it out!

I conquered a "giant" today

2009-08-26T14:43:00.000-07:00

Today, I feel like I conquered a giant. I have officially finished a baby book for the first 6 months of Anthony's life!!! Although it's not quite 'homemade' or exactly what I dreamed it being, it's done. I frequently get offers from Shutterfly to create a free photo book, but have never finished one before the deal expires. I get too stressed out about making it perfect. This time I approached it from a different angle and was determined to just get it finished. I'm pretty proud of the end result and couldn't feel more productive if I tried. I didn't want to have another baby until it was done... I guess I'm offically ready now. Bring on baby number two!!!

PS- Sorry I can't make the picture any bigger :(

I Won!!!

2009-08-26T14:37:00.000-07:00

Thanks to my lovely friend Christina... I won a giveaway! This super cute pillow will soon be making an appearance on my couch. Head on over to Pillow Designs by Joom to see all of the cute stuff in her store.

Look What I Found...

2009-07-16T09:16:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I saw the cutest car seat cover. I asked the new mommy if she had made it, to which she responded "Yes... I sell them for $60." Well it sure was cute, but I can think of a lot of other ways I'd like to spend $60. But look what I just found (and bought)!!! I am so excited to start working on this, although I suppose I probably need to wait until I find out if this new little bundle of joy I'm carrying is a boy or girl. Bummer! I guess it gives me plenty of time to find the perfect fabric for either though. I can't wait for September to roll around...

Do you like it too? Check it out on Etsy here.

2009-07-10T12:55:00.000-07:00

This week I've decided to start to be productive again... at least attempt to anyways. My first trimester ends Sunday (Thank you Lord!!!), but I'm not planning on the morning sickness leaving anytime soon. I was sick my whole pregnancy with Anthony. However, I've come to realize that I don't really feel any better laying around then if I am actually up doing something. I can only nap with Anthony is taking one, or Tony is home, so if it's not one of those occasions, time to start doing something. Yesterday I started working on going through the house room by room and de-cluttering. I'm going to continue doing this throughout the week. Since a lot of it is going through drawers, I'm able to sit for most of it and Anthony is intrigued by what is in everything. I also want to get thank you cards for Anthony's birthday written and mailed. So here it is briefly:

1. continue de-cluttering the house
2. thank you cards

Play along with us... what are your goals for the week?

Baby Bean's 1st Pictures

2009-07-07T15:01:00.000-07:00

Here "it" is... our new little one complete with fingers, toes, and a little nose. I appear to be measuring a bit big, so my due date has been upped to January 17th. This makes me 5 days away from trimester #2. Woohoo!!! With that hopefully means some relief in the nausea department. We took Anthony to the ultrasound with us which he really enjoyed. He kept switching between pointing out the nose, feet, etc, and saying "Look, it's Nemo." I'm not sure how much he understands, but he did pray last night "Thank you Jesus Baby Bean's nose." SO cute!

My baby is not so little anymore...

2009-06-16T21:20:00.000-07:00

Today I came to the realization that my little guy is well, not so little anymore. Yesterday, the above took place. I left him for 30 seconds, of course right after his bath, and came back to find this. I laughed so hard! There's no way that I could even be mad about it... and taking this picture just made me laugh even harder as I watched him cover himself. Today he did quite a few things that had me laughing too.

First thing this morning he saw a box of doughnuts sitting on the counter leftover from Saturdays garage sale. He asked for one, and I explained that they weren't good anymore (unless you enjoy eating rocks I suppose). A little bit later I moved the box down next to the garbage can, and put a box of recycling on top of it. I figured he wouldn't notice it if it was underneath stuff. Wrong! A few minutes went by, and in he came with a half eaten doughnut. "Anthony... No! That's garbage! It's icky!" "No," he said, "that's silly!

We had a few errands we needed to run today, all in the same parking lot, but several different stores. As we were walking from the vitamin store to Walmart, Anthony asked where we were going. I pointed to Walmart and told him "over there." He replied, "No, actually we go in there." (pointing to Quizno's) How many 23 month olds use the word "actually"? It was pretty funny to hear coming out of his little mouth.

This evening, I was working on folding laundry and packing for this week. Anthony came up to me with his toy pliers and asked if he could "Give Mommy haircut?" He proceeded by grabbing a chunk of hair, pretending to cut it, and saying "that's better." When he decided he was finished, he looked at me and said, "That hair-do handsome dude!" Where in the world did he come up with that??? I got him to say it on camera for me.... note his outfit though. We were trying on clothes to see what fit him still, and he refused to let me take this off of him. He said "I look like Daddy."

It's Official...

2009-06-08T11:40:00.000-07:00

...this week has been the worst week of the year so far. We'll just skip Monday and Tuesday, although they really could add to the story, and start with Wednesday.

Wednesday, I had to have blood drawn for life insurance. The actual process wasn't as bad as it's been in the past, but I worked myself up about it all day. So much so that I was feeling too sick to attend school. This was the class I've been looking forward to... I was finally going to learn how to speak in the past tense in Spanish. Let me tell you how frustrating it is to only be able to speak in the present tense. This week is the last week of class... and I won't be able to go again :(

Thursday, Tony had to go out of town last minute. Not a huge deal, except remember the"morning" sickness? And guess what I had to do this morning? Go to my first OB appointment. By myself... with Anthony that is. Thankfully, I loaded my bag full of snacks and toys, and he made it through. Not sure how I feel about him having to watch the exam, but at least he is still young. My favorite part of this day was on my way out the door the handed me a slip for... you guessed it... blood work. Normally I prefer to cry while they do it, but this time I had my baby with me. I had to suck it up and be brave for him. I made it through. Maybe I should take him with me every time.

Friday I must have spent all day in bed sleeping (between trips to my new best friend... aka the toilet) because I really don't remember a thing. I know I got up for a couple hours in the evening, and was back in bed by 9pm. At 10pm I started puking. I'd been throwing up off and on since I found out I was pregnant, but I knew this was the beginning of the end for me. I puked all night. Literally. Every single sip of water I took came right back up. From 10 to 6am when I finally had my husband call the doctor to see if I needed to go in for an IV yet. Instead he called in a prescription for a lovely suppository for the same medication I had been taking orally. (Which obviously doesn't work if you're not keeping anything down.) The good thing about them is they knock you out. Within 30 mins, I was finally asleep.

So now it's Saturday morning. What I forgot to mention is that before I finally fell asleep, I was greeted by a mouse in the bathroom. A problem we thought we had taken care of 2 years ago. Or at least we hadn't seen one or any signs of one in two years. Great! Just what we needed! So while I sleep the day away, drugged up on medication, my poor husband, who also hasn't gotten any sleep, has to take our son to the hardware store and buy the needed supplies to deal with the mouse problem. Somehow he manged to re-mortar our foundation, and work on installing more insulation in the basement to keep them from getting into the house, all while caring for our son. He must have taken a really long nap! Saturday evening I finally got up to try and eat something and watched a movie with my husband. And that night, we both slept. (I spent the whole day praying for Jesus to come back... not even joking. He answered my prayer with sleep. Close enough for me!)

Sunday morning, I actually left the house and went to church. Mind you I still felt horrible. But I actually even ate breakfast before we went. I think this was the first time in a week I ate a real meal. I'm really glad I made it to church. We talked about the difference between living as an orphan and living as a child of God, and how our identity should stem from the later. It was such a good reminder for me right now. I would usually identify myself as wife, mommy, cook, housekeeper, etc. I must say I feel like a failure since I've become pregnant because I can't do any of these things well right now. Thankfully though, I am a beloved child of God... and that is who I am. Nothing I do or don't do can change that. Something I can't fail at... that's encouraging! I felt much better for most of yesterday. I made myself lunch, did a load of laundry, and vacuumed Anthony's room. I did something!!! By dinner I was nausea again and couldn't eat. So I took some meds and off to bed I went.

Monday, 12:30 am. Tony starts puking. My husband is the WORST puker ever. I seriously think the sound he makes when he is throwing up is the same sound he would make should he ever be stabbed. Since we only have one bathroom, he was kind enough to take care of it outside. However, it still sounded like he was laying next to me. Not a good thing when I'm trying not to be sick myself. So let's just say today hasn't been the best of days. Neither of us slept last night. We've been alternating sleeping this morning and laying on the couch trying our best to supervise Anthony. He's down for a nap, and I let Tony take the bed. I thought writing would be the best way to take out some of my frustration. Unfortunately the ones we love usually get the worst of it, and the last thing I want to do, or my husband needs right now, is for this to happen.

So let's just say it's been a bad week. Although reading back over this I can see some positive things. I'm really hoping that my Friday night was a result of stomach flu, and not the beginning of hyperemesis. Please Lord I don't want to do that again. (not sure what that is... check it out here.) These are definitely the times though I wish I was back in Olympia, close to friends and family. We've had lots of offers for help, but it's not very often that help arrives when you ask for it. Makes it hard to want to continue to ask. It's amazing how alone you can feel in times like these. This is the scariest thing for me in worrying about dealing with hyperemesis again. As soon as I got sick with Anthony, no one called, no one came to visit. Not that I would always feel up to either of these things, but I got nothing. When I was hospitalized for a week, the only person who came to see me was my aunt who was dying of cancer. That visit meant the world to me. But seriously, if she could do it... where was everyone else? These are the times when you find out who your real friends are, but sometimes, you just don't want to know. I actually I have friends I've been trying to call to even tell I'm pregnant. Friends I think who deserve a phone call before I post anything on Facebook and they read it there first. But it's been 3 weeks, and I haven't had the phone calls returned. Crappy.

I really think I've ranted enough for today. Although this hasn't been a very upbeat, happy post. I am thankful and hopeful. Circumstances could be much worse right now. I am thankful I am not in the hospital currently. I am thankful Anthony is content to play quietly by himself. I am thankful for my loving and supporting husband. I am thankful that God knows what he's doing and will never give me more than I can handle. And this gives me hope! We made it through this once... we can do it again. Please keep us in your prayers though... we could really use some encouragement right about now.

Focus Friday

2009-05-29T15:50:00.000-07:00

It's been a few weeks since I've posted, but I promise, I have good reason!

Last time I joined in on Focus Friday, my goals were to take a 2 week break from the TV and computer, to spend time studying Ruth, Esther, and Proverbs, and to work on becoming a better wife. I did great cutting out the TV, but the computer definitely proved to be way harder. I couldn't fast it 100%... bills had to be paid, and some emails just had to be sent. But let me tell you how easy it is to get side tracked! I read through Ruth and some of Proverbs, but as far as actually studying them, not so much. I think I am still moving in the right direction when it comes to being a better wife. Of course I still have horrible days where I am far from where God wants me to be, but it is more and more becoming a conscious thought of how I should be acting. If I can change my thoughts, I know my actions are going to continue to follow. It's a process. It takes time to change habits, and I'll get there soon. I am finding it harder though now that I'm pregnant. (For those of you who missed out on my last post, that's right, I'm pregnant.) I forgot how unstable the hormones make you emotionally! Not that I can use them as an excuse, but wow, do things just come out of no where sometime.

My main goal for this week is really out of my control, but I'm praying for some sort of miracle! I had hyperemesis with my last pregnancy, and was hospitalized for a week during week 7 of my pregnancy. I am quickly approaching this day, and with how I've been feeling the past couple days, am not feeling very optimistic. Please Lord keep me healthy!!!

Some more realistic goals:

1- enjoy as much time as possible with Tony and Anthony... things get tough for everyone when Momma's sick!
2- not stress about the housework, but do what I can to keep on top of the necessities (laundry, dishes, vacuuming)

And with that, I'm headed back to bed.

There's going to be some changes around here...

2009-05-21T14:28:00.000-07:00

Focus Friday

2009-05-01T15:27:00.000-07:00

Well I did pretty good this week! I kept my house clean for the most part (noticing that Wednesdays are much harder with school though), did better with the bedroom (although still no master plan yet), and had a great week with my husband (thanks to a LOT of pod casts I've been listening to on being a wive/mother/women here. They are definitely challenging, but so encouraging to change.)

This week I want to:

-get the backyard cleaned up
-organize the garage (going to need Tony's help... hope he's up to the challenge)
-fast the television and the computer and read/study Ruth, Esther, and Proverbs. (For the next two weeks. Want to know why? Listen to this podcast on women and femininity.)

Be back in a couple weeks!

Did you know...?

2009-04-24T09:43:00.000-07:00

My friend, Christina, posted about some things yesterday she's learned this week in raising her adorable little guy, see the cute button above. It made me laugh thinking of all the crazy things we learn as we go about raising kids.

Here's what I learned yesterday:

Did you know...

...waking your son up from a 5 hour nap, to find out he has a fever of 106.1 is very scary... especially when he's shaking

...having a nurse tell you to just give your son some Motrin and push fluids is NOT comforting after saying at 107 I need to worry about seizures... we took him to Urgent Care

... a sick 21 month old, will still tell you he needs to go potty to avoid "wet pants" even with a diaper on

... your husband will drop whatever he's doing at work and immediately come home upon hearing about his sick son... even when he's at an important trade show with all of his bosses

... when you're coming home late for dinner, because you've been at Urgent Care for the past 2 hours, do not stop at Albertson's for a rotisserie chicken... they put them out at 1pm. Nothing sounds appetizing about a chicken that's been sitting out for 6 hours... even when you're really hungry

...when your son is sick you get to cuddle him all day without being pushed away... enjoy it while you can because...

...the next morning, even with a fever of 103, he will be acting normal again... even if mom's still worried

Focus Friday

2009-04-24T09:09:00.000-07:00

I am so happy to have finally made it on here, on a Friday, to post my goals. I do really well accomplishing what I want to with this format, so you should give it a try too.

Hmmm... what are my goals for the week:

1. Continue keeping up on the housework. Besides our bedroom, the house has looked awesome all week. I'm so proud of myself, but it does lead me to the next one...

2. Figure out what it's going to take to keep our bedroom clean. It's the one room in the house that always gets overlooked. There's nothing too romantic or relaxing about looking at a heap of clean, folded clothes just waiting to be put away. I mean seriously, how long does it take to put the clothes actually into the drawers? SO frustrating!

3. Consciously think about if what I say and do, or don't say and do, is showing respect to my husband. And if not, repent.

My first goal should be pretty easy for me, the 2nd shouldn't be, but is, and the 3rd is really going to stretch me... in a good way. I'm so thankful that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! (Phil 4:13)

I'm back... hopefully!

2009-04-14T13:10:00.000-07:00

Okay so it has definitely been way too long since I've posted anything. Everyday I think to myself, "I have got to get on here and post something!" Yet weeks later, still nothing. But finally, here I am! I don't even know where to start... there are so many things going on right now.

We took a quick trip to Kalispell, MT for Tony's work. I'd never been to Montana, and as you can see, it was absolutely gorgeous! The following week we went to Kennewick for 4 days. Last week and this week Tony is in Montana again. It's been a crazy month, and I miss having my husband home.

I sewed with a pattern for the first time. Wow... so much easier than trying to make it up as you go. It was amazing to have all of my seams line up perfectly. I LOVE how this turned out and had so much fun making it, I bought fabric for another. I didn't take pictures yet, but I also followed a couple tutorials online for a wipes case and wristlet to go inside. I had a lot of extra fabric, so I thought it'd be fun to try out some new things

We're remodeling (took out a window and door, added a sliding glass door, will soon be adding a bedroom and more formal dinning room, and eventually a 2nd bathroom) and started re-siding the house. (Sorry these pictures got reversed)

I know I still need to post about our trip to the Dominican Republic, but that deserves a post of it's own. Hopefully I will get to that this week.

Other than that, I've been busy chasing Anthony around. We're still potty training him... only have him in a diaper when he's sleeping. I'm glad I keep with it and didn't give up a couple weeks ago when I was tired of cleaning up pee and poop from the floor. He's almost got it down now, and I love the money we're saving on diapers. He's talking like crazy! Saying complete sentences now, and using more Spanish too. He only asks for milk in Spanish: "Bebo Leche."

I'm also working on planning a benefit dinner for Legado, the school our friends our starting this fall in the Dominican Republic, a Beth Moore Bible Study on the Fruit of the Spirit, and have a meeting this week with a lady at World Relief to talk about how we (and our church) can start working with the incoming Refugees from Cuba (something we did before at our previous church with Refugees from Burma).

So there's a quick rundown. I feel so much better now having finally written something. Hopefully, I'll find time to keep on top of it. We'll see...

Focus Friday

2009-02-27T14:47:00.000-08:00

This weeks goals went pretty well. We're in Olympia now, so I obviously got the packing done, and we actually left with the house clean!!! I always want for this to happen, but it never does. I am looking forward to returning home to everything in order. I didn't get the quilts finished. Not because I didn't have time, but because I just did not feel like doing them. I'm so burned out from all the baby quilts I made this last year that I just have no desire to finish the few that I need to. Anthony is doing better with the potty training. Today we ate lunch at a restaurant and he asked to go all by himself. He's been accident free so far today, so I hope he keeps it up!

This week I will be in the Dominican Republic, so I don't really have any goals other than to not get sun burnt :o) Actually, I really hope to be able to invest into the lives of those we will be down there serving, and to learn a lot about what it's like to bring your family onto the mission field. I also hope to improve my Spanish, and become more comfortable speaking it with someone other than my husband.

That's it for this week... next week I'll be posting from the beautiful DR. That is if we have power that day...

Focus Friday

2009-02-20T11:09:00.000-08:00

I did pretty good this week taking some time out for me. Since Monday I've worked out 4 of 5 days, and done my devotions 4 of 5 days. Not bad!

This week here's what I need to accomplish:

1. Pack our bags for the Dominican Republic, and Anthony for Grandma's
2. Finish the quilts for my Nieces so I can bring them with us
3. Have the house clean before we leave town
4. Work with Anthony on going potty without being told to

I could think of a lot more, but these are the big ones. It's going to be a busy week!

Valentine's Gift/Our Wedding Scrapbook

2009-02-19T08:26:00.000-08:00

For Valentine's Day this year I decided to scrapbook our wedding to give as a gift to my husband. I haven't done much scrap booking, but I am pretty happy with how most of the pages turned out. I didn't get all of it finished, but I did get the ceremony and reception completed. I also "re-did" our guest book, as this was one of the things our dogs decided looked tasty and ripped apart. I didn't take the sheets out of the pages for the pictures, so they're not the best, but they'll at least give you an idea. Enjoy!

Focus Friday (On Monday)

2009-02-16T11:40:00.000-08:00

So I know it is now Monday, not Friday, but I still wanted to participate in Focus Friday this week.

I did okay on my goals for last week. I got the box of clutter put away (took me all of 5 mins) and got to a good stopping point on Tony's Valentines gift (I started scrapbooking our wedding... pics to come soon). However, I did not get the baby gates clean. I'd like to say I didn't get to it because they are stored in the attic of our garage, but I know that even if Tony brought them down for me I wouldn't have got them done.

This week my "to-do" list is insane! Since we are leaving to Olympia and onto the Dominican Republic in less than two weeks, the amount of things I need to accomplish are unbelievable. (It also doesn't help that Tony will be out of town almost everyday until we leave.) So my goals I'm posting on here have to do with me... thanks Jamie :o)

-Devotions/Study of 1 Peter :1-12
-Work-out
-Study my Spanish

Hopefully taking some time out to do these things for me will keep me from getting too overwhelmed!

Check out Anthony's sweet dance moves...

2009-02-09T08:00:00.000-08:00

Forget-Me-Not Friday

2009-02-06T12:37:00.000-08:00

I came across another one... this one looks fun too!

My forget-me-not:

My favorite memory this week definitely has to be Anthony starting to use the "big boy potty." I've been showing him the sign for bathroom for months now, and this week he finally got it. He'll sign it and run to the bathroom, and then best of all, actually go! He definitely doesn't do it every time, but I am so proud of him! I guess this means I should start reading up on potty training. He's ready to go!

Focus Friday

2009-02-06T12:21:00.000-08:00

This is my first Focus Friday, although I've been reading others here for the past couple weeks. I think this is a great idea and I'm excited to try it out.

Here are my goals for the upcoming week:

-Finish my husbands Valentine's gift
-Clean the baby gates I need to bring to church
-Put away the basket of clutter from upstairs that belongs downstairs

Wish me luck!!!

7 Day Love Challenge

2009-02-05T16:08:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I received an email from a friend asking if I was ready for a challenge. It was referring to the 7 Day Love Challenge. I checked it out and thought it sounded like a wonderful idea! Tony and I have never really made a big deal out of Valentine's Day, but after reading about this challenge, and showing it to Tony, we both agreed it was a great idea. When we were dating we were very intentional about doing things to let the other person know how much we love, appreciate, respect them, etc. Since being married and especially since having a baby, this is now few and far between. This leaves us both wondering at times if we are still valued and cherished in the same way. I am really excited to give this a try and see what happens.

Today I am doing yesterday's challenge for Tony - Making him a banner to welcome him home from work. I hope it makes his day!

So now I challenge you to join me in this endeavor. Check out their website and let me know what you think. (It looks like they have some other really great marriage resources too.)

Teaching Anthony to Sign

2009-01-27T14:40:00.000-08:00

I started signing with Anthony a couple weeks after he was born. I began by signing milk whenever I nursed him, and my husband and I were shocked when he started to sign it back at 6 months. (It's not normal to sign this young. Most kids start signing between 8-10 months) We then chose a few more signs to introduce that we thought would be helpful: mom, dad, more, eat, drink, help, finished, please, thank you. I had read that the best way to teach is just to use the sign whenever you say the word. It should not be a forced thing, and your child may not even appear to be watching you.

Each time Anthony started signing a new sign, we'd add a new one. I started a list of things we said to him on a regular basis and these are the signs I would choose from. If I couldn't remember how to sign something, I would look it up online (always check a couple sites to make sure it's correct) or look in an ASL dictionary I check out from the Library occasionally. I also found a great DVD series! I've read a lot of articles that say watching "educational" shows are not actually beneficial. While that may be true of some shows, I completely disagree when it comes to the "Signing Time" series. I now have 4 of the DVD's and Anthony has mastered all of the signs on them. He sits on the couch and signs along with them. He's so proud of himself... he gets so excited to show you he knows how to sign the sign too. One thing to remember is that when your child learns a sign they will modify it slightly to make it easier. I've noticed as Anthony gets older he is starting to use the "correct" form of the sign.

So why do I think signing is so great?

-I was able to communicate with Anthony way before he was verbally able to express himself
-He has never cried out of frustration. He cries when he's told no, or gets hurt, but he never cries for no reason.
-It's fun! I loved sitting down to read books with him before he could say much because he would sign to me about what's going on. I had no idea he understood what I was saying until he started pointing to things and signing it. (Of course I still love reading to him now, I was just amazed at his capability to understand so much when he was still so young.)
-It's been helpful in teaching him Spanish. For instance, instead of saying "milk" while signing it, I say "leche."
-He was talking much sooner than others his age. I've heard so many people say they won't teach their kids how to sign because then they won't want to talk. SO not true!
-I can't remember a time when I had no idea what he wanted or needed. Between signing and talking he has been able to communicate what he thinks, needs, or feels.

Anthony is now 19 months, and he knows more signs than I can count. His latest favorites are roller skate, guitar, sit, book, play, and no. He also has made up some of his own signs, especially for food items. "Toast" is one of the signs he has recently made up and uses constantly. Amazingly, it is very close to what the actual sign is.

So Christina, and anyone else out there who wants to sign with their children, I hope that helps. Please let me know if you have any questions.

I attached a video from Signing Time that I found on YouTube. It's a cute Valentine's Day clip :o)

I wish my camera could capture a smell....

2009-01-27T14:26:00.000-08:00

....because then you'd be smelling wonderful homemade bread fresh out of the oven! (Gluten Free of course) Yum!!!

25 Random Things About Me

2009-01-27T09:24:00.000-08:00

I originally did this to respond to a post on Facebook. I thought it was fun so I'm posting it on my blog too. I'd love to hear 25 random things about you too.

1. I am currently taking Spanish lessons. I am learning so much, and I am so thankful to have such a great teacher.

2. I miss my friends. A lot. I wish I knew how to still be close with them even though I don't live nearby.

3. I miss my sisters too.

4. I am a dreamer. Someday I hope to do a LOT of different things.

5. I learned sign language in K-4th grade and I still remember it. I've been teaching it to Anthony since he was born. It has been soooo helpful. He first signed "milk" at 6 months. His new favorite sign is "roller skate."

6. I love to read. I have a hard time starting a book and then putting it down. If I read before I go to bed I will stay up all night.

7. I remember very very little from my childhood. I have some memory of middle school, but I really don't start remembering until high school. I think this is a good thing...

8. My husband is my high school sweetheart. We have been together for 6 1/2 years (minus 10 months for MC) and married for 3 of them.

9. I think the book "Love and Respect" is a must read for anyone who is married. And I think it should be read over and over again until you both "get" it. Someday I hope to do a small group on the book. Not because I'm anywhere close to mastering the concepts, but because I think it's so powerful.

10. My husband spoiled me with a dozen roses every month when we were dating. I received over 30 dozen roses within a couple years.

11. I love to learn. I love school and wish it were not so expensive. Someday I want to finish my bachelor's degree. I want to major in Sociology and get my teaching certificate.

12. I want to live abroad. There is so much more world than the US, and I hope to experience life in many different cultures (and share Jesus along the way).

13. I am finally returning to the Dominican Republic. After 4 years of longing to go back, God has finally answered my prayers. I can't wait to go serve the people and missionaries there. Only 32 days until we arrive!!!

14. I have Celiac disease. For all practical purposes I'm allergic to gluten (wheat, rye, and barley). Really it's an autoimmune disease. If I eat gluten my body does not recognize it as food, and it will not absorb any nutrients. My body then thinks it is starving. There's more to it, but it's way different than an allergy. It is difficult to diagnose, and I was sick for a good 8 years until I got a new doctor who figured it out.

15. I love board games. Yatzee is my favorite because I almost always win. Actually it's my favorite because Tony always looses :o)

16. I am horrible at remembering movies. Unless I've seen one multiple times I couldn't tell you a thing about it. Even if I loved it. Even if I watched it yesterday.

17. Tony and I have very large confusing families. Between the two of us we have 14 siblings, 5 in-laws, 4 nieces, and 1 nephew. And that's just the kids. Let's just say Christmas gets expensive.

18. I am afraid of heights. Not terrified, but it's pretty much the last thing I'd want to do. Looking over the edge of something high is the worst. I get nauseated just watching others do it.

19. I love being "domesticated." I love cooking, sewing, and keeping the house clean and organized. Now if only I knew when to hold my tongue, I'd be the perfect wife :o)

20. I am scared to death to have another baby, even though I've already had one.

21. I had braces for 7 years and my teeth still aren't perfectly straight.

22. I love Mexican food. I could eat it every meal of everyday. And I'm not talking Taco Bell Mexican. I love the spicy, authentic stuff full of cilantro.

23. I am currently watching Madagascar in Spanish and eating Captain Crunch.

24. When I go to Starbucks I order a white chocolate americano with lots of cream... tall if it's hot and grande if it's iced.

25. When I die, I hope to be remembered as a loving wife and mother who served the Lord in everything I did.

Wife and Mommy

2009-01-21T12:21:00.000-08:00

I love being a wife and mommy! Although there are definitely days when I may tell you otherwise, I genuinely love both of these roles. Today my morning has been filled with making breakfast, doing the dishes, working on our taxes, and going through things that have never really gotten unpacked from 2 years ago. I feel like I was pretty productive, but I am struggling with this... How do I maintain a household while still being a great Mom to Anthony? Although I got a lot done this morning, as I was laying him down for his nap I realized I really hadn't spent any time with.

I don't think I have unrealistic expectations for keeping my house a certain way. There are always dishes to be done and laundry to put away. I know my house is not going to be spotless and I don't expect it to be. Maintaining the house is so much more than just cleaning though and these are the things that really pile up. I have thank you cards to write from Christmas, let alone the 3 Christmas gifts that still need to be finished and mailed. All of the information for our taxes needs to be gathered, so that I can then actually do them. I've got Spanish to study, devotions to read, and some form of exercise to try and squeeze in. Bills to pay, grocery shopping to do, and of course cooking meals. I'm not overwhelmed, I just don't know how to get it all done! And when I do accomplish something, I end up feeling horrible because I didn't spend any time just sitting on the floor playing with my son. And this is what really matters to me.

Does anyone have any suggestions on how to tackle everything that needs to get done while still being a loving, attentive mother? I don't want my son to grow up remembering that I was always too busy to play with him, but there are things that have to get done. Advice?

Looking back on 2008

2008-12-28T20:10:00.000-08:00

We began and ended 2008 with record amounts of snow. On the news last night we were informed that Spokane had more snow in 2008 than an any other year in the history of the city. I wish I could remember the total... I think it was around 128 inches. We even had it snow one day in June. These are two of my favorite snow pictures: One from January and one from December.

The first couples months of 2008 were difficult for me. Since the fog of having a newborn had worn off, I found myself pretty lonely. Although we'd been in Spokane for just over a year, I really hadn't made any friends yet. It was a tough time to get through, but I always had this smiley face around to cheer me up:
Anthony and I took a trip to Olympia for two weeks at the beginning of March. It was so great to see family and friends! While there, I finally came to the realization that Olympia wasn't home anymore. Everyone and everything had changed. In my mind I just expected that everything was how it was when I had left, but it wasn't. I suddenly wasn't homesick anymore, and for the first time I was so glad to return back to Spokane. Spokane finally felt like home!

April and May were busy months! We had our first exchange student (Yuki from Japan) move in with us, Tony got promoted at work and started traveling, and at church we were working with the youth group and teaching English to refugee children from Burma. The warmer weather allowed us to return outdoors and we loved being able to take Anthony to the park and hiking for the first time. We also put grass in our back yard!

June was full of changes. We had to find our dogs new homes due to their never-ending escaping, Yuki moved out, we had to stop serving in the youth group due to Tony's work schedule and the new found mobility of Anthony, and our baby turned 1, now making him a toddler. I also was able to spend another 2 weeks in Olympia with Anthony.

July and August were a blur of summer camp, Tony's family reunion, BBQ's, Tony's birthday, bike rides, and camping trips. Tony and I were fortunate enough to go camping and bike riding in Canada for a weekend to ourselves while my mom watched Anthony. It was a much needed refresher for our marriage!Things began to slow down again in September as the weather began to cool. We also had a new exchange student move in with us (Fivien from Macau). She has been such a fun addition to our family, and has helped me not miss my sisters so much. We were able to take her with us over to Olympia, and show her around Seattle.

October was a challeging month as we made the difficult to decision to start looking for a new church. It was very hard to leave everyone who had become our family, but I really needed some friends... two years is a long time to go without a friend. I am so thankful that everyone was so understanding and has kept us a part of their family. I miss the Karen children terribly and Pastor Eric's amazing messages, but I know God will bless us in following his leading.

November began with another trip back to Olympia. We celebrated an early Thanksgiving with my family, along with Mikaila's Birthday. We also began taking Spanish, partly due to the fact that Tony is Cuban and partly in the hopes that we can use it for missions one day. We have an awesome teacher, Lili, who is here from Columbia student teaching at the community college. The month ended with a visit from Breanna and Tariq, a very early morning which yielded a Kitchen-Aid, an adventure to cut down a Christmas tree, and my 24th birthday.
December came and went quickly. We were blessed with the opportunity to host the Root family twice, and had visits from both of our families. We have made some great new friends, and I have become involved in a Mom's group that I am SO thankful for. It's wonderful to have people to pray with, and talk with others who understand what it's like to be a Mom. I've since been busy attending play dates and dinner gatherings, and am loving every minute of it. We had a wonderful Christmas and New Years with family and friends. Tony and I also celebrated 3 years of marriage with a trip to the beautiful Coeur d'Alene resort.
Like any year, there are always ups and downs. This past year, coupled with the previous one, yielded a lot of hard times. I have learned a lot about myself and what is truly important to me, and once again witnessed God's love, protection, and provision. Thankfully, the year ended on a high note and I'm praying the 2009 will be a year full of them.

Our Winter Wonderland

2008-12-21T14:07:00.000-08:00

Here's pictures from earlier this week. We got a total of 22 inches in just over 24 hours. We've gotten more snow since these were taken, and it's snowing now with another 6 inches or so expected today. It's so beautiful, but I would love to get out of the house. Tony's parents came in for the weekend and are unable to get back home today. Hopefully they'll be able to catch a flight out tomorrow.

Look what I got...

2008-11-28T21:09:00.000-08:00

Look at what my wonderful husband bought me!!! I have been wanting one of these for so long. Although I would have loved a fun color, this one was only $130... a great deal in my opinion. My hubby loves chocolate chip cookies, so I made him a batch as a thank you. I am so excited to start baking with this. Since I make EVERYTHING from scratch due to my gluten allergy, this is going to make cooking so much easier (and fun too). Yay! Thanks Babe... I love you!

Yuki's Birthday

2008-11-21T08:48:00.000-08:00

Yesterday we were blessed with the opportunity to host Yuki's 21st birthday party. (Yuki is our previous exchange student from Japan.) Although it was just a simple party by American standards, she said it was the biggest party she's ever had. Yuki and her two friends Mari and Yumi brought over dinner to share, 2 students from Taiwan brought some chips and soda, and Fivien and I made her cake. I wish I had taken some pictures of the actually party, but here's a couple I took beforehand. Happy Birthday Yuki!!!

I love Yokes!

2008-11-21T08:35:00.000-08:00

This morning I made Anthony and I a nice American breakfast consisting of eggs, hash browns, and sausage. And the best part about it... it was absolutely free. At one of our local grocery stores, Yokes, I got a coupon at check out as a "Thank You" gift. It was for the above items and I didn't even have to purchase anything to receive them. I was already convinced that they have the best customer service, produce, and gluten-free selection... now they have truly won me over. Thanks Yokes!

Fun and Inexpensive Clocks

2008-11-14T15:32:00.000-08:00

Ikea has these really cheap plain clocks for about $2.00.

I bought one for Anthony's room, but it was way to boring too hang up so it has just been sitting around. Until now... I figured out that I can take the clock apart and decorate it! I bought a few more and have started decorating them to give as gifts to my siblings for Christmas. They are really fast and fun to make, but I will warn you... the actual clock itself its VERY touchy. If you pull the hands off to hard you have to take the whole clock apart and try and get the little pieces all back in the right spot. So frustrating!!! Here's pictures of the ones I just made:

(Riley wanted something "cool" for Chrsitams, so that's why this one says "cool")

Cute Little Owls

2008-10-20T11:25:00.000-07:00

I've been making a lot of baby blankets over the past couple months, with about 4 more to go by December. I've really had a lot of fun making them and I've loved blessing others with them. These are the two most recent I have made with my favorite print of a mama and baby owl. I wish I would have bought more of it because it's all sold out now :o(

My little guy is sick!

2008-09-29T10:49:00.000-07:00

Anthony has been sick for the past couple days with a high fever averaging right around 103. He's been pretty miserable, not wanting to do much more than lay on the bed or couch and be held. I wish there was something I could do for him, other than give him some Tylenol. We took him to the doctor this morning and basically all he said was it could be something viral, but if he still has a fever on Thursday, bring him back in and we'll talk about running some tests. I hate waiting. And then what if they do find something?

Please keep him in your prayers!

Dreams

2008-09-16T10:07:00.000-07:00

My husband is always saying that the number one thing he admires about be is that I'm a dreamer... that I'm not afraid to to dream big, and that I won't let circumstances keep me from having these dreams. But lately I've been struggling with something. I want to be known for more than someone who has lots of great dreams. I want to be known as someone who achieves my dreams. Now I've got an endless amount of them, so by no means am I saying I want all of my dreams to come true, nor that I want them to come to pass at this very point in time. But God has put dreams and desires and passions in me for a reason. So what do I do about them? Being married and having a child are dreams of mine too, but why does it feel sometimes that I have not accomplished anything? I have an amazing husband, whom I take for granted way too often, and a darling little boy who thinks I'm the most amazing thing in the world. Both are more than I ever dreamed of. So I would definitely say that I have more than accomplished 2 of my dreams. But now what? I don't know what to do with all the passions in my heart. Achieving 2 of my biggest dreams leaves me feeling trapped, and that all of my other dreams are doomed to be purely that... just dreams. I really don't know where to go from here. How do I explain this to my husband without making him feel that I resent him. Because I don't! I don't know how to help him see and know my heart. I don't know how to help him see past all of the practical issues, to just trusting that God will provide. I love that he is so devoted to providing and caring for our family that he will do whatever it takes, but how do I let him know it's not a burden he has to carry on his own. How do you sow principles of faith and trust into someone? Being faithful and trustworthy don't seem to be enough.

Lord, I pray that you would grant me wisdom. Illuminate scripture that will guide me through my doubts and frustrations. I thank you for the dreams you have placed within me. Please help me to see them as a gift, not a hindrance.

My new favorite picture!

2008-08-28T11:36:00.000-07:00

I just cannot get enough of this picture! I have the cutest, funniest, sweetest son ever!

The weekend ahead...

2008-08-28T11:29:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow Tony and I are headed to Canada for a baby free weekend. I am definitely going to miss my sweet boy, but I am SOOO excited to spend some quality time with my husband. Although we wish we could afford to stay in a hotel, we will be camping to save money. I really don't mind though. It'll be nice to just be in the middle of nowhere without all the distractions of daily life. We plan to do lots of bike riding, laying out on the lake (hopefully it'll be warm enough), and taking a day trip to the nearby hot springs. I can't wait! And Anthony will be home getting spoiled rotten by Grandma and Auntie... lucky him :o)

Quiet

2008-08-20T20:03:00.001-07:00

Tony is out of Town tonight and Anthony is sleeping... this means all is quiet for me. After being out of town 3 of the 4 past weekends, and cooking ALL day for Tony's birthday dinner yesterday, I am thoroughly enjoying just sitting on the couch and watching the Olympics. I'm also going to go to bed early tonight and read... one of my favorite things that I hardly ever do. I think I'm going to go make some tea...

Sun Lakes

2008-08-12T10:03:00.000-07:00

This past weekend we went camping at Sun Lakes. We had a great time and enjoyed just being out of the house for a couple days. During the day we spent time out on the boat, eating ice cream, and just enjoying the sun. Anthony was awesome the whole trip, except for an hour and a half of screaming while he protested a nap. The two nights we spent there were definitely interesting with rain and thunderstorms the first night and crazy high winds the second night. During the day though it was beautiful and that's really all that matters. I was able to wake board one of the days and I was so proud of myself to finally make it across the wake. Especially since it's been a couple years since I've gone. Tony was able to go a lot... He's getting so good!!! Anthony and I both love watching him. Here's some of my favorite pics from the trip:

TGIF... or maybe not

2008-08-01T16:20:00.000-07:00

Tonight is Friday night. That used to mean something. Friends would be coming over or we'd be going out somewhere. I'd have a reason to get all fixed up. Not that I've let myself go or anything. I just miss getting all dolled up sometimes... like tonight. Instead I've got big plans of cooking dinner, cleaning the house, scrapping wall paper off my bedroom walls, and tending to a very cranky, teething son and a tired husband. Instead I wish I was putting on some hot shirt, my new jeans, some heels, and heading out for a drink and some dancing with my girlfriends. Too bad none of them live here.

Well, it's about that time to start cooking dinner....

Tennis

2008-07-29T08:52:00.000-07:00

Tony and I have somehow inherited a pair of old tennis rackets. We have no idea where they came from, but the have been in our garage for quite some time. Yesterday, we finally bought some tennis balls and decided to give them a try. The park down the street from us has a tennis court, so we took a walk down there to play and found out that... We suck! We spent more time chasing after the balls (we definitely need more than 3) then anything else, but we had so much fun. Anthony watched nearby in his stroller laughing and clapping... he enjoyed watching us make a fool out of ourselves. It was a nice change from jogging, so I think we're going to keep at it. At least until it gets too cold.

My Sweet Boy

2008-07-23T20:28:00.000-07:00

Last month we celebrated Anthony's 1st Birthday. I cannot believe how fast the past year has gone by! I started a blog for him today to help us both remember all the little things that are so easily forgotten. I mean, look how much he's changed. I can't even believe he's the same little guy! I know everyone says it goes by so fast, but does it have to go by this fast?

Top - Anthony 12 days

Bottom - Anthony 1 year 6 days

A Princess Heart..

2008-07-21T11:59:00.000-07:00

I started reading a book today that I haven't read in years called "Keeping a Princess Heart." I read this passage today, and it really stood out to me.

"The illusion of a sugary sweet world looks perfectly positive, and the darkness of the so-called real world seems honestly negative, so we rationalize that together they will balance out each other. It doesn't work that way. Two halves will never make a whole when both are illusions. We have "fake it" on one side and "get over it" on the other. Pick your poison - saccharin or arsenic; it's death either way."

I'm not quite sure what it is that I like about this. Maybe it's the fact that it just tells it like it is. It doesn't allow you to get caught up in some dream world thinking that everything will just work itself out. I mean, things do work themselves out, but not by you just pretending that everything is okay or ignoring that fact that everything is not okay. I tend to fall prey to both of these, and perhaps, this is why this quote stood out to me.

I haven't read the solution to this dilemma yet, and who knows, maybe it doesn't give one. But if it doesn't, I guarantee you I will be seeking out the answer. I do not want to live my life just "faking it" or "getting over it." What a miserable existence. I do not see any joy or peace in either of these lifestyles; both of which I want abundantly in my life. Romans 15:14 says, "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." So maybe I just found my answer. Hope in God.

I'm tired of smiling...

2008-07-10T11:00:00.000-07:00

I am blessed beyond measure! I know this without a doubt and it's easy to smile when I think of this. In fact it's easy for me to smile pretty much all of the time. There is way more to be joyful about in this world then tearful, but that doesn't mean that there isn't pain and hurt inside. So how do people know when you're hurting? Do you just walk around with a scowl on your face or tears in your eyes because then someone is sure to notice and ask? Or do you just continue to smile hoping that someone will take the time to ask how you're really doing? Neither option seems optimal. Until I figure it out, I guess I'll just keep smiling.

Summer Camp

2008-07-08T22:58:00.000-07:00

This week is summer camp for the church that I grew up at, and since it is so close to home, I've been going out for the day to spend time with friends, worship, and enjoy some great speakers. Tonight a video was shown about letting go. It was an awesome video! One line really stood out to me though. It said something to the effect of "If I let go of all that I am, then who am I?" I'm not sure why it made such an impression on me, but it has sure been running through my head over and over again since I've heard it. Prehaps it's because lately I'm not really sure who I am anymore. Everything that I thought made up me, has changed since becoming married, moving, and having a baby. It makes me feel lost a lot of the time. Don't get me wrong though. I am very content with my life, and wouldn't change any of it for the world. But here I am... left to wonder "Who am I?" I don't have the answer yet, but I plan on finding out.

Family Time

2008-06-03T21:55:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, we made a trip to Couer d' Alene to spend some family time. Even though it rained, and the boardwalks were closed due to flooding, it was wonderful! We strolled around the park, found an awesome hiking trail, had a picnic while watching the local high school baseball game, and took some fun pictures. It was just what we needed!

Friends

2008-05-23T14:18:00.000-07:00

I am so thankful that God is answering my cry for friends here in Spokane. Today was week two of meeting with some girls from church to have a "bible study." Since being married, I really haven't had anyone to talk to who could relate with where I am in life or what I was going thorough, especially now that I have moved away from home. It is so reassuring to hear that I'm not the only one who feels like she fails at being a wife at times, or struggles with priorities, etc. It is amazing to me that talking about my downfalls can actually leave me encouraged. Thank you Lord for this opportunity to learn about myself and others while growing in you!

A "blah" day and a thankful heart

2008-05-13T16:40:00.000-07:00

I don't know what it is about today, but I just feel "blah." Maybe it's the gray skies, or the fact that I haven't had a good nights sleep in a week. I don't feel like doing anything though. I don't want to do the dishes or the laundry, cook dinner, pay the bills, or write my paper. Of course these are all things that most people don't want to do anyways, but usually I don't mind. Since taking a day off doesn't get to happen when you're a Mom though, I am going to put on some worship music, and praise the Lord that I have a kitchen to cook in, clothes to wash, and money to pay the bills. Then, when Anthony goes to sleep for the night, I will thank God for the quiet time He has provided me with to study His Word while I write my paper.

Batman Pajamas

2008-05-11T07:35:00.000-07:00

It's funny how certain things can make you realize something different. Last night, I gave Anthony his bath and got him ready for bed as I usually do. Only last night, I dressed him in his first pair of Batman pajamas. It was then that I realized my baby is turning into a little boy. As I watched him push his car around the room in his cute little Batman jammies, I just sat in amazement. Most days I still don't feel like I'm old enough to be married, let alone own a house. And here I sat watching my baby play like a little boy. Where has the past year gone? This is truly a reminder to me to savor everyday I spend with my son, because next thing I know, I'll be placing his first backpack on him and sending him off to school.

A gift

2008-05-09T14:54:00.000-07:00

Today I spent a couple hours in the craft store buying what I need to put together a gift for Tony's first Father's Day. I am so excited to start working on it! I know he will be very blessed. I can't say what it is now... just know I will be very busy this next month. (As if I don't have enough going as it is.)

Reflection

2008-05-06T20:29:00.000-07:00

Tonight was the first time in a while that I just sat alone and worshipped God. I am writing my final paper for school right now, which requires me to reflect on a passage of scripture that has become meaningful to me over the course of the class. It never ceases to amaze me that God truly is faithful to what His Word says. When I think of how God has provided for me over the past year and a half, I am moved to tears. What have I done to receive anything from Him?Thank you Lord for Your faithfulness, provision, love, forgiveness, grace. Ignite in me a passion to enter into your presence daily.

Here is the passage I am writing my paper on:

“Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke?
Is it not to share your food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter— when you see the naked, to clothe him, and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?
Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.
Then you will call, and the LORD will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I. "If you do away with the yoke of oppression, with the pointing finger and malicious talk,
and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday.
The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.” - Isaiah 58:6-11

Day One...

2008-05-06T11:19:00.000-07:00

Today is my first day to ever write a blog. I've been meaning to start for some time now, but just haven't gotten around to it. I am hoping to find this as a place to share whatever is on my heart each day. Being at home with Anthony is definitely a blessing, but I miss out on interacting with people. At the end of the day I find myself so full of things that I want to say or talk about, but find that there really isn't anyone around to share with, besides Tony of course. Now that he is traveling with work though, even he is not always here to listen. I think I need to start blogging for my sanity :o) It will provide me with a place to pour out all of my joys, fears, frustrations, etc. So.... here I go. Wish me luck!