Tuesday, July 29, 2008


Tony and I have somehow inherited a pair of old tennis rackets. We have no idea where they came from, but the have been in our garage for quite some time. Yesterday, we finally bought some tennis balls and decided to give them a try. The park down the street from us has a tennis court, so we took a walk down there to play and found out that... We suck! We spent more time chasing after the balls (we definitely need more than 3) then anything else, but we had so much fun. Anthony watched nearby in his stroller laughing and clapping... he enjoyed watching us make a fool out of ourselves. It was a nice change from jogging, so I think we're going to keep at it. At least until it gets too cold.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

My Sweet Boy

Last month we celebrated Anthony's 1st Birthday. I cannot believe how fast the past year has gone by! I started a blog for him today to help us both remember all the little things that are so easily forgotten. I mean, look how much he's changed. I can't even believe he's the same little guy! I know everyone says it goes by so fast, but does it have to go by this fast?
Top - Anthony 12 days
Bottom - Anthony 1 year 6 days

Monday, July 21, 2008

A Princess Heart..

I started reading a book today that I haven't read in years called "Keeping a Princess Heart." I read this passage today, and it really stood out to me.

"The illusion of a sugary sweet world looks perfectly positive, and the darkness of the so-called real world seems honestly negative, so we rationalize that together they will balance out each other. It doesn't work that way. Two halves will never make a whole when both are illusions. We have "fake it" on one side and "get over it" on the other. Pick your poison - saccharin or arsenic; it's death either way."

I'm not quite sure what it is that I like about this. Maybe it's the fact that it just tells it like it is. It doesn't allow you to get caught up in some dream world thinking that everything will just work itself out. I mean, things do work themselves out, but not by you just pretending that everything is okay or ignoring that fact that everything is not okay. I tend to fall prey to both of these, and perhaps, this is why this quote stood out to me.

I haven't read the solution to this dilemma yet, and who knows, maybe it doesn't give one. But if it doesn't, I guarantee you I will be seeking out the answer. I do not want to live my life just "faking it" or "getting over it." What a miserable existence. I do not see any joy or peace in either of these lifestyles; both of which I want abundantly in my life. Romans 15:14 says, "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." So maybe I just found my answer. Hope in God.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

I'm tired of smiling...

I am blessed beyond measure! I know this without a doubt and it's easy to smile when I think of this. In fact it's easy for me to smile pretty much all of the time. There is way more to be joyful about in this world then tearful, but that doesn't mean that there isn't pain and hurt inside. So how do people know when you're hurting? Do you just walk around with a scowl on your face or tears in your eyes because then someone is sure to notice and ask? Or do you just continue to smile hoping that someone will take the time to ask how you're really doing? Neither option seems optimal. Until I figure it out, I guess I'll just keep smiling.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Summer Camp

This week is summer camp for the church that I grew up at, and since it is so close to home, I've been going out for the day to spend time with friends, worship, and enjoy some great speakers. Tonight a video was shown about letting go. It was an awesome video! One line really stood out to me though. It said something to the effect of "If I let go of all that I am, then who am I?" I'm not sure why it made such an impression on me, but it has sure been running through my head over and over again since I've heard it. Prehaps it's because lately I'm not really sure who I am anymore. Everything that I thought made up me, has changed since becoming married, moving, and having a baby. It makes me feel lost a lot of the time. Don't get me wrong though. I am very content with my life, and wouldn't change any of it for the world. But here I am... left to wonder "Who am I?" I don't have the answer yet, but I plan on finding out.